*suffering*

...kill me!!..ughz.. feel soo stressed outz..all dis bs happening here... can i get a fuckin break? y do i alwayz hab to feel da shitty one? n im fuckin still standing... *I Live With It*> dats how im still standin to dis world...n y is it dat everytime when i knoe someone n im fallin in love wit dem, y do dey hab to be soo far away from me? prolly i dun freakin deserve to be wit someone... dats y i would happily die in ne way, juz to be peaceful...its not like ne one cares ne wayz... cuz noone notices me... im alone in mah own freakin world n noone carez....but i do care someone n her name is irene n im really happy knowin we found each otha n knowin she wuz mah classmate before too n shes da only one actually makes me happy by talkin to her, listenin to her, hearin her voice on da fone, readin her msgs, even tho shes far away from me..but to her im juz prolly sum guy she met online, who knoes.. nowadays we dun get to talk dat much, but i understand dat she got skool work..but when i try to talk to her by callin her on weekends or atleast at emails she doesnt seem like happy or misses me.. mayb nowadays im juz borin her, wastin her time, im not interestin her no more.. dats wut im afraid of cuz one day shes gonna stop talkin to me, n it alwayz happens to me...but im really sowwie if im borin her, wastin her time, n not interestin her ne more perhaps...dats all i could say for now....n also

*Shouts to IRENE<3 HAPPY B-DAY!!!! n i hope u enjoy da gift dat im givin u =X, n wut i juz wrote up der.. dun take it as a bad way or like im talkin shyt bout u or sumthing like, cuz naw its not.. im juz writin down wut i feel nowadays but if it offends u in a way also, im really sowwie but im not tryin to offend u or sumthing... well i hope u enjoy ur b-day cuz i duno if we can talk on ur b-day...well take carez! luv ya! muahz! <3...*